New life, new me

Hello Guys,

It has been such a long time since I’ve shared anything. Life has been very busy and very different for me. As of this year, on November 5th, 2021 we welcomed our baby girl. Being pregnant with her was for the past 9-10 months was emotionally hard for me; its like the enemy was attacking me mentally, emotionally, at my job, in my marriage. It was just a very emotional journey, BUT I would have not changed it for the world; because during those moments, ALOT was revealed to me regarding my upbringing and how they affect me and my marriage today.

And that is what these next few post will be about, my journey of self discovery regarding my upbringing, my parents upbringing and how it has been passed down to me weather good or bad, and my own personal trauma. This is about breaking generational curses and healing from my own stuff. While on this journey, I met with my cousin (lets call her Tee) who is also going through the same discovery as me. She was also at a place of self discovery as she experienced something traumatic for her and how her reaction was influenced by her mother which it turns was influenced by how she was brought up and her experiences. about our parents upbringing and how their decisions have affected our lives today.

Now, I am sure you are wondering “What does this have to do with me? My marriage? where is the wisdom in these topics?” Well, I am here to you it has a lot to do with it. In past post, i have mentioned that understanding your partners past and the way they grew up helps you understand them and their habits. Well, now the tables has been reversed; its time we take self inventory about ourselves. WHY?? you might asked. Well because we need to asses how we present ourselves to others in the way we speak, why we speak that way, the way we think and why we think that way. My Bishop always says “The way we are today is a sum total of the seeds people have planted into us.” ALOT of it has to do with our upbringing; the words our parents have spoken over us or to us, our friends, our colleagues.

Lets jump into it